Starting over

SOOOOOO.... I shaved my frigging head man. I decided to do this after years of struggling with my hair. When I say years I mean pretty much all my life. I want to embrace myself in this state. Hair is so over rated. Men are the worst about it, they claim they want a real woman, then go swooning after Beyonce or some other star who also wears hair. So I said screw it, I am me, I am beautiful regardless. I'm getting used to it...I thought the kids would have something to say, but they really didn't care. I am still in the process of finding myself, and the pressures of society are so hard to shake. I love being a chameleon. I can change my hair and look at my whim, and that sounds great to me. Tomorrow I might feel differently, when I wake up and look at myself in the mirror...I have a terrible self image for someone who comes off as secure and confident. I am working on it. I am not having the results I thought I would working out either. I see a small difference. I looked in the mirror today a saw this thick chocolate sista looking back at me. I said to myself...self, your HOT!! I mean, I'm not as bad weight wise as I thought I was. With that said, my goal in the gym is to tone up what I have. If I manage to lose weight in the process then that's great! Going to go chill and have a smoke. Until next time...me!