feelings

Sitting here trying to process all of the emotions i have been feeling lately. Mostly sadness, anxiety and fear. I think as people we try so hard no to feel anything. Maybe if I just sit with these emotions I will come to understand them better and then be able to deal with them more effectively. I began this love without fear thing with myself recently. Realizing I cant control anyone I figured that if I love freely without fear then get hurt I would just remove myself from the situation. If someone takes that and mistreats that then they lose the benefit of me. That's how I planned to move through out the rest of my life. So far the pain is really hard to get past...the uncertainty to. I guess I am just that much set in my ways.